Chapter Five: Never As Good As The First Time?...Bullshit!!!...

In our afterglow, and after we calmed down, I wanted to know and asked "What made you kiss me like that"?

He said, "Do you have any idea how beautiful you are?" Blushing, I said "No". I hugged him and cried a little and I didn't need or want another explanation. I decided at that moment to confess my own obsession of him and how I used to spy on him while he was working at Tower Records. I then asked if he had noticed me at all? He said.."no".

After we each took a shower, and because I had to work that day, I went home. I asked when I can see him again, and he said, "lets get together later on tonight".

To say I was having difficulty walking was an understatement, but I was so happy and contented. Working was made a lot easier, knowing we would meet up again. He called and said he would pick me up.

He drove up at the appointed time in his motorcycle, and as I climbed into the backseat, I realized how comfortable I was being around him. He then reached back and kissed me, and we rode off to grab some dinner, then rode over to his place.

We both knew we wanted to have some more sex, but I was seriously sore in the ass, and we both decided to give each other massages. I was also curious about how he would feel if I decided to fuck him, but decided to wait on that, and just enjoy each other's bodies in a more casual and intimate way.

After putting on some music, Mark whispered for me to come over to the bed and I roll onto my back. I’m fully hard. And so is he.

Throughout the massage, Mark maintains a great equilibrium of eroticism, pleasure, and release. The focus is never about reaching orgasm, or rushing through the rest of my body now that I’m on my back. He pays equal attention to all parts of me. Occasionally he rests his body on top of mine and rubs his belly and chest back and forth, up and down. Without a doubt, this is the most erotic part of the session.

Finally, he begins to jerk me off while massaging my legs and groin. I eventually have a great intense orgasm, and after cleaning my belly, Mark winds down the session with light caressing from my shoulders down to my feet. I shudder from the sensation. I asked if he would like me to return the favor, and he said he can wait, that he was tired and decided we would just sleep together. And so we hoped into his bed, and that is what we did, slept. Like logs.

But right before I drifted off to sleep, I started thinking about my life and what I had gone through to lead me to this moment of complete trust, love and acceptance.