Chapter Thirteen: I Kissed A Boy
For along time, I have noticed my attraction to men and never thought anything was wrong with how I was feeling, but I started reading up on the subject and realized right away it was something very taboo and controversial and that I had better keep my thoughts about it to myself.
After my exploration of Barbara, I knew I also enjoyed looking at and being with girls too. I see them and get just as excited as I do as when I see boys. I know when I see certain female celebrities I get turned on, but one always stood out, and that was Jaclyn Smith. In my room, I had the walls covered from head to foot of various magazine articles, posters, or anything I can find on her. But after setting up The Playboy Fort with Burt, that was when I met Steven.
Steven was in my science class. He was a tall, thin, particularly pale - almost sickly looking, boy with nearly black hair. He was extremely quiet, and didn't seem to have many friends. He lived on the other side of town from us, so I didn't really know him. The third week of school, we were assigned to break into pairs and do a research project on none other than reproduction in various animals. I ended up being paired up with Steven, and we were assigned the sea sponge!
Well, Steven asked me if I wanted to come over and work on the paper at his house. I'd agreed, and my mother dropped me off one day after school. Nobody was home at the time, except Steven. Since we didn't know each other too well, we got right to work. Shortly after we started we were both surprised to find that sponges reproduce asexually - in other words, without having sex with a partner! Well... both of us found this a little funny, and we started to snicker, as we apparently both thought about it.
"Think they're he/she's?" Steven asked, grinning.
"I'd like to see how they stick their dick in themselves," I said, giggling.
"Yeah - must hurt if they have to bend it like that when it's hard!" he said.
One comment led to another about how a sponge would screw itself, and we were soon both laughing.
"Must be boring if they never have sex with anyone else," I said.
"Yeah," Steven said, "Poor guy never'll feel what a blow job is like!"
Something about the way Steven said that, led me to think he had had a blow job, and knew what it felt like, which surprised me.
"You've had a blow job before?" I asked.
"Of course!" he said.
He cut off then and turned beet red.
"Really? What's it like?" I asked, incredulously.
He looked frantic for a moment, then suddenly turned redder, but relaxed a little and said, "Um... it's real nice!"
"Who did it to you?" I asked, still incredulously.
"Um... I don't think it'd be right to say," He said, still red.
"Well... OK, but... well did you get off? Did they swallow it?" I asked
Still red-faced, he grinned and nodded.
"Damn!" I cried. "I so wish I could get a blow job once!"
Steven snickered and said, "Well, you could self-suck yourself! I bet that's what sponges do!"
I laughed, but as I looked at Steven, he looked a little too serious.
"Wait a minute - is that how you got a blow job? You self-suck?" I asked.
Steven blew it then. I don't think he realized I'd catch on, because he didn't have a comeback planned, and hesitated way too long, and just turned redder.
"Holy shit! You do!" I said.
When I realized he was close to tears, I said, "Hey - um... it's OK - really! Um... I mean, I never tried to do it. I'm not even sure I could, but... damn!! You must have a long dick to get it in your mouth!"
Steven was nearly maroon then.
Suddenly it occurred to me - he'd nodded when I asked if he'd gotten off during his blow job, and if they'd swallowed.
"So... you did it til you shot your jizz in your mouth?" I asked.
"NO!" he cried then, but I could tell he'd finally recovered enough to lie.
"Bullshit!" I said, smiling slightly. "You said they swallowed it. Shit man - you suck yourself, and swallow your jizz!"
Poor Steven looked miserable. Oddly, I found myself with a massive hard on though. All I could think was how I couldn't wait to get home to try it myself.
"It's OK man," I said, trying to keep him from bursting into tears. "Don't sweat it, I won't tell no one!... but... um... could you tell me how you do it?"
Steven looked shocked then, and it was my turn to blush profusely.
"Why?" he asked. "Are you saying you want to try it?"
Blushing redder, I nodded.
He studied me for a moment, and I must've looked appropriately embarrassed - I know I felt it - because finally he smiled slightly.
"OK," he said.
When I saw his smile, I relaxed.
"You're serious?" he asked, eyeing me.
"Yeah... um... I wanta try it when I get home," I said.
He looked carefully at me. Then he said, "I think you should try it now, so I can help you do it right!"
"WHAT?" I asked, dumbfounded by his suggestion.
"Well... if you do, I'll know you mean it, and won't tell the other kids at school," he said. "Besides, it's not that easy to do."
"Well..." I said, thinking quickly. "What're you gonna do? Show me how you do it?"
He hesitated, but finally said, "If you try to do it, I'll do it too."
I looked at him for a minute, my cock was raging in my pants.
"OK," I said. "Show me what to do!"
"Well, first we have to get naked," he said.
"OK," I said, as my dick flexed.
Steven smiled a slight nervous smile, and then started to pull off his T-shirt. I couldn't believe this might really happen, but I decided to go along with whatever Steven decided to do, and see just how far he went. I started to pull my own shirt off too. As I did, he kicked off his sneakers, and reached down to pull his socks off. It was then I noticed the massive bulge in the front of his pants. Immediately my mouth felt dry, like it did whenever Burt and I were getting ready to jerk off together. He waited for me to take off my shoes and socks, then together, we both lowered our jeans. The height of the tent in his boxers amazed me. All I could think was he had to have one fucking long dick! When he finally pulled his boxers down a moment later, I saw I was right. His dick, which was cut, and appeared to be planted in a wad of thick, curly, black hair, stuck straight out from his body, over a low-hanging, scrawny-looking nut sack with a pair of large eggs in it. It was long and thin, and at least 9" long! I couldn't believe it, and was embarrassed by my own organ which was nearly four inches shorter. Steven didn't seem to notice my "shortcoming" though, and in fact, he smiled in what seemed an appreciative way.
"So, what do you do? Just bend over and there it is?" I asked.
Steven chuckled and said, "Well, I can get the tip of it in my mouth that way, but it's easier to lay on the floor, and roll your legs and hips up over you, like you're doing a reverse somersault. Then your dick's hanging right over your mouth, and you can just lower your hips til you're able to get some of it in your mouth."
"Um... OK, but can you show me how?" I asked.
"I guess," he said.
Steven got on the floor on his back and gave a heave, and rolled his lower body up over his upper body. When he did, his legs split far enough, and his buttocks stretched out, so I could clearly see his tight asshole, surrounded sparsely by some dark brown hairs. My dick flexed at the site of it, and I wished I could reach out and touch it.
Steven rolled his hips further over and said, "If you'd stop studying my butt, and look down here, you'd see how I do it!"
Blushing deeply, I jerked away and looked down to see he was grinning at me, and the head of his dick was nearly touching his lips.
"Holy shit!" I said. "You're almost doing it!"
"Watch!" he said. I watched then in awe as he scrunched his body up, and pulled his hips downward some more. He opened his mouth, and the end of his dick disappeared into it. When everything from his anus forward had slid into his mouth, he immediately started sucking on himself. My mouth dropped open in astonishment, as I watched this him pleasuring himself.
A moment later, Steven pulled his hips up and unrolled himself, so that he was lying flat on his back on the floor, with his dick, the top half of which was glistening with his spit, sticking up in the air.
"That's it! That's all you have to do," he said. "Now you try it!"
He got up and made room on the floor for me. I really didn't want to do it in front of Steven, but, I didn't really have a choice, I'd agreed to, so I got on the floor and imitated what Steven had done. Try as I might though, I couldn't get any of my cock into my mouth - it was too short, and I couldn't roll over that far.
"Um... you need to pull your hips down further," He said. "Um... I could help by pushing down on your ass if you want!"
I really didn't want him playing with my ass, but, I didn't want him to think I wasn't long enough to reach, and I really wanted to see what it felt like.
Before I could reply in the affirmative, I felt Steven's hands press down on my ass - one on each buttocks.
"Go ahead and try now!" he said, and he pushed down harder.
I pulled and rolled myself up - and to my surprise, the head of my dick touched my lips! By stretching my neck up slightly, I got the whole glans in my mouth. Quickly I licked it, and it felt GREAT! I tried to suck on it for a minute, but my guts began to hurt, and I had to relax and let it pop out of my mouth. Steven let up on my ass then, and I rolled my hips back down to the floor.
"Did it work?" he asked, smiling.
"Yeah, but only the head got in my mouth, and my gut started to hurt," I said. "I'm not sure this is something I can do alone. If you hadn't pushed down on my ass, it wouldn't have worked at all. But - it did feel good! Damn! I can't wait for my first real blow job!"
I grinned.
"Me neither!" Steven said, smiling as well.
As we looked at each other smiling, I saw a look come over Steven's face. He suddenly looked both very aroused, and extremely embarrassed. It only took me a moment to think of what might cause that reaction. As I thought about it, I felt my cock throb, and I too blushed, and felt hornier than ever.
Finally, as we looked at each other, neither knowing what to say, I smiled slightly and shrugged a little.
"I suppose..." I said, my voice trailing off.
"You mean???..." he asked.
"I think so," I said.
We looked at each other a moment longer, and finally Steven said, "Well, we've done this much together, I don't suppose it'd be that much more!
I smiled slightly, and watched as he tentatively moved in front of me. Incredulously I watched as he knelt directly in front of me.
"You have a gorgeous cock!" He said. Then he took it in his hand and slowly lowered his mouth over it.
"OH FUCK!" I gasped as Steven's hot, soft, wet mouth enveloped my dick and began sensuously sliding up and down it. I'd never felt such fantastic pleasure!
Steven slid his mouth up and down my rod for a few seconds, then stopped and pulled off me.
"How was it?" he asked, looking up at me.
"Fucking awesome!" I replied, grinning down at him.
He smiled nervously back at me and said, "I'll do you some more, but you gotta do me some first!"
He stood up then, and looked at me both nervously, and with deep arousal. He then leaned over and gave me a kiss on the mouth. This was my very first kiss from someone other than a family member. I hadn't minded trying to suck my own dick, but now that I was faced with having to put someone else's in my mouth, I wasn't sure I wanted to. He had sucked mine though, and said he'd do it again. I really wanted to feel his mouth on me again too. Focusing on the thought he'd suck me off again, if I did him too, I pushed all other thoughts from my mind and squatted down.
Steven's hard penis was pointing straight at me, between my eyes. It bobbed up and down slightly as he stood there, and the slit looked slightly moist. Otherwise, it looked clean and dry.
Quickly, to get it over with, I raised up slightly, wrapped my hand around the base of Steven's dick, and directed the head of it at my mouth. I opened my mouth and lowered it over the stiff, throbbing penis. As my tongue slid past Steven's piss slit, I tasted a vague tangy-saltiness.
"Ohhh!!!" I heard Steven gasp, as I began sucking up and down the top half of his dick. He was so long, I couldn't take anymore of it in my mouth.
As I sucked back and forth on him, I felt Steven's hands appear on my head. He just rested them there, as I bobbed back and forth, and he groaned with pleasure.
After a few seconds, which I hoped was the same amount of time he'd sucked on me, I backed off him.
"How was it?" I asked.
"Fantastic! Do me some more! I promise - I'll do you again too!" he said.
I really had hoped he'd do me again, right then, but I figured maybe he'd do me longer if I did him some more, so I lowered my mouth over his cock again, and began sucking.
Within a few seconds, as I slid up and down Steven's dick, his hands tightened on my head, and his hips began to pump back and forth a little, as if he was fucking my mouth!
Suddenly, Steven groaned, and I felt my mouth flooding with warm, salty, thick liquid.
"Fuck! He's cumming in my mouth!" I thought, as I nearly gagged.
Before I could think to try and pull off, he blew a second load in my mouth, which was full of his cock and the jism from his first spasm. Not knowing what else to do, I swallowed, so I didn't choke, as he continued fucking me, and pumping still more semen down my throat.
Steven spasmed a couple more times, but didn't ejaculate nearly as much cum as his first couple of shots, before his orgasm finally ended. As soon as his hands left my head, I pulled off him, and swallowed the last of his cum.
"You didn't tell me you were gonna cum in my mouth!" I complained, looking up at him feeling a mixture of betrayal, anger, and oddly, arousal. As the aftertaste of Steven's semen permeated my mouth, I found it rather interesting, and felt even more aroused.
"Sorry," Steven said, looking guilty. "I just thought you knew I meant that. Um... I'll let you cum in my mouth too!"
Instantly, my cock flexed violently at the thought of Steven's mouth sliding up and down it, and blowing my own load into his mouth too.
"OK," I said, standing up.
Steven smiled then and knelt down. Instantly, he wrapped one hand around the base of my cock and cupped my balls with his other one, and then his mouth slid down over my dick and he started sucking on me. It felt even more awesome than it did the first time, a few minutes earlier.
I don't even think it took a half minute before I felt my orgasm about to begin. Like Steven did, I put my hands on his head and began fucking his mouth too. He started sucking me more insistently. A moment later, I exploded with joy, and fired what felt like the biggest load of cum I'd ever shot, into Steven's mouth. He gagged slightly, but swallowed quickly, as I reveled in the joy of my release, and blew another river of semen into his mouth. Steven swallowed again, and kept on sucking up and down my rod. I came a couple more times, before my orgasm ended. Steven kept on sucking on me, even afterward, until I gave a final pleasureful shudder, and pushed him off me.
"Well?" He asked, looking hopefully up at me.
"Fuck, that was great!" I said, grinning.
He grinned back at me, as he got up.
"Um, I'd like to do it again, but my parents'll be home real soon," he said.
"OK," I said, feeling incredibly disappointed.
Immediately upon realizing I was disappointed, I felt surprised. I had just had a gay encounter, and I was disappointed that it was over. Did that mean I was gay???
I didn't have time to think about it though, because as we stood there, nude, smiling knowingly at one another, a car pulled into the driveway. It was my mother, who'd come to pick me up. She blew the horn and sat in the driveway with the car running. We both quickly pulled our clothes back on, and ran downstairs. As I ran out the door, I told Steven I'd call him about working on the project some more.
He grinned and nodded. And I walked out the door and into the car, my first thought was I just kissed a boy and I liked it, alot. But about a month later, something would happen to me that would effect me for the rest of my life and to this day it still has.
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