Chapter Twenty: Becoming The Man In Me

One day after school, me and Daniel were in our room doing homework and a simple conversation turned to a conversation about sex and girls. Daniel asked if I had ever been with a girl and at that time I have been with several girls but had not gone all the way with any of them, so I said, "No".

We talked about what I was attracted to and he did the same, but using this line of questions, Daniel turned the conversation to one about homosexuality. He was trying to find out what I thought about gay people and if I ever found guys attractive. I told him that I was attracted to men and I have looked at men in that way. And told him about my experiences with Burt in the tent and us starting the Playboy Fort and about Steven.

Then Daniel told me he was bisexual and asked if I know what that was. I had never heard that term before and he seemed to relish the opportunity to explain that he was attracted to women and that he also found men attractive. I was kind of in shock and he continued the conversation by asking what I thought about what he just told me and I told him I was not sure how I felt.

Daniel now had the opening he was looking for and he explained that he found me to be someone he could really talk to about stuff and that he thought I was nice looking too. I did not know what to say but he proceeded to tell me he had thoughts about wanting to sleep with me and get closer to each other. I did not know what to do or what to say. I was somewhat flattered that he thought I was good looking. Daniel then said, "We wouldn't have to do anything, we can just lie in bed together and see how it goes".

I was silent. What was I going to do? I did find him very attractive but my sexual experience up to this point was mainly jacking off and blowjobs. But he made me curious about experimenting. But since my rape, I had developed a since of shyness and not able to break free from the pain I had felt during that episode. Daniel then said, "Don't worry; I am not going to make you do anything you don't want to do". He was trying to smooth things out, because he realized that he had pushed the conversation too fast. We finished our homework and went out to the living room to watch television, and since his arrival, this was the first moment where we weren't comfortable around each other, but he seriously got me thinking about things.

I started thinking about what might take place soon, and I knew I had better be ready for anything. My first thought was "What if I do end up sleeping with him?" I had not masturbated for a few days and I knew the next time I was to cum, it would be alot. Then I started thinking about my ass and if he puts his finger in me or his cock in me, I did not want him to think I was not prepared so I made sure I was clean inside and out of my ass.

The next night at bedtime, I went into our bedroom and Daniel was in there already, laying in bed reading a comic book. But when he saw me, he got up and closed the door to the bedroom and pulled me over to his bed. And asked, "Do you want to sleep with me tonight?" I simply replied, "Yes I do." He then asked, "Are you sure?" I told him that I was sure.

He sat on the edge of his bed and motioned for me to sit next to him. He put his hand on my thigh and started rubbing it, and telling me to relax and that everything would be all right. I simply nodded and he told me to take off my clothes and he said he had to use the bathroom. He opened the door to the bedroom to head towards the bathroom and I sat there quietly for a second. I then started undressing. I took off my shoes, my shirt, pants, and my socks, and piled them at the end of my bed. I decided I would leave my underwear on and I sat there waiting.

I started thinking, do other 13 year old boys do this sort of thing before they go to bed. I know I heard other boys in the locker room talk about doing stuff with girls, but never with boys. I started realizing how quickly I was changing and growing up and how I simply have never been like 'a kid'. I have always felt and acted older than my physical age said I was.

Then, hearing the bedroom door open, I looked at him come in wearing nothing but underwear and socks. Daniel sat on the bed and rubbed my shoulders for a second and told me to go ahead and lay down on the bed, near the edge. He had me face the window as he came around to side of the bed and knelt on the floor by me. He had me lay on my side and he started rubbing my chest, stomach, and legs. He moved me closer to the edge of the bed, spread my legs apart and started rubbing my cock through my underwear.

I tried to distance my thoughts from what was going on, but as he was trying to take off my underwear, he brought my thoughts back to what was happening by asking me to help take off my underwear. As I lay back down on the bed, he started kissing me and fondling my cock and balls. He took my soft cock in his mouth, started sucking it, but because I was nervous, I was not getting hard for him. Frustrated, he stopped sucking and asked me if it felt ok. I told him, "Yes" and he asked me to help him get my cock hard. I agreed and started jacking on my dick and he started sucking and stroking my cock again. And I started getting hard and feeling relieved, because I knew Daniel was not going to stop until I cum for him. After awhile, my cock started getting really hard as I focused on trying to cum in his mouth, and it was actually starting to feel good. As I got close to cumming, he started fingering my ass at the same time. I knew there was no turning back for me now and soon I could feel myself near to cumming. I decided it was time to cum in his mouth. When I came, I think it surprised him at first, because of the volume of cum. And as my cock started to buck and dribble cum in his mouth, he continued to suck and pull on my cock to drain my balls.

He told me to lay on my stomach in the middle of the bed as he got up off the floor. He told me to get on all fours, like a dog and move up toward the head of the bed. I could feel him climbing on the bed behind me now and he told me that I would really need to try to relax. I could feel him inch closer to me and felt him start rubbing my ass. He told me to take a pillow out of the bed and put my head down on it. He then told me to spread my legs a little and arch my back. I could hear him stroking his cock and I felt him start to rub my butt-hole with hand lotion he had gotten from the bathroom. He rubbed some lotion on his cock and then rubbed some on his fingers and he slipped his finger in my ass and started fingering my ass a little. He asked it felt OK and told me how nice and tight I was.

He then asked if I was ready, and I said, "Yes". I could feel his hard cock against my butt hole as he tried to penetrate me. It was OK at first but then it started to burn and he asked me if I was doing OK. I told him it hurt and I tried to pull away from him. He said that I needed to relax more and that the hurting would eventually stop, but I needed to relax.

He asked if I was ready to try again, I said "Yes" again. Again it hurt and I tried to have him take it out, but he refused and held on to my hips, keeping his cock in me. But he pulled my mouth to his and kissed me and while doing so, he pushed his tongue in my mouth, that was beyond anything I had ever experience before and pushed me to overdrive, and made it more intimate for me. I then put my tongue in his mouth and he just kept pushing his dick in my ass. The only problem was the bed was squeaking and I was afraid mom and dad would come in. But they never did. I realized this was meant to be and would not be interrupted.

He then asked how I was doing, and surprisingly, I was doing OK, because the pain had stopped. Then he started moving his cock in and out of my tight hole and when he did, I rose up and that helped him move in and out of me more quickly without hurting. My cock started getting hard again. He told me to keep moving and to move back and forth with him. It started to feel real good this time and I was really getting into and I did not want to stop till I had his cum in me.

He reached around me and as he was pounding my ass, he grabbed my hard cock, and said "Oh Yeah, that's it". Then suddenly, he quit playing with my cock and took hold of my waist. His stokes were shorter and quicker and he was fucking me. Really fucking me. Then he pulled me close and his hard cock went deep inside me. I tried to pull away, but he held me close and out of breath he told me "No, don't move!" I knew he was cumming in me and I now could feel his hard cock jerking inside me. He was breathing heavy and soon hunched over me, moving his cock in and out very slowly. He softly kissed me on the back and his weight made me go flat on my stomach onto the bed. Then I finished by making myself cum while he started relaxing.

He gently whispered to me that it felt very good and asked if I was OK. I said it hurt a little, but I was OK. I could tell he that he liked watching his cock slowly pull out as my hole gapped open just long enough for him to see his cum try to bubble out before my hole slowly tightened and close back up.

I felt gross between my legs, so went into the bathroom and cleaned up. After a few minutes of doing so, I walked back into the bedroom and Daniel was waiting for me on the bed. He had pulled on his t-shirt and told me to climb into bed with him and we would sleep together. So I did. I pulled into his bed and crawled right into his arms as he started to wrap them around me and we fell asleep.

A few weeks later, it was the end of the school year, and it was time to say goodbye to Daniel. He was trying to make it easy on me, because I had grown quite fond of him. My family adored him as well. A feeling of uneasiness came over me, or maybe it was sadness remembering what had happened between us over the last few months. Then his flight came, and he boarded his plane for his home in Brazil. And we all said goodbye to the Boy From Brazil. And I said goodbye to my boyhood, for I had become a man, and ready for what was to come of that.